5–11 January 1857

Rose after twelve. Went to F. Tolstoy’s where I made Ulyb^shev’s acquaintance and stupidly refused to make Bosio’s. Dined at Tolstoy’s. I feel at ease with them. Heaps of people at home. P(se^.Xi’s The Lady created no effect on me, and the music did not 4 . . . Stol^pin is delightful. A mournful impression. A violinist.

Got up towards twelve with a headache. Bakiinin was here. I played with him and with Kolbasin. Went to Bdtkin’s. News about the emancipation of the serfs. Went to the Turgenevs’ ; did not see Olga. The old man offended me. Dined at Bdtkin’s. We started talking about riding. I like him more and more. Went home : towards nine A. P. came ; very nice. It was dull at SJicherbatov’s. I told that fool Vy£semskaya about Belfnski. Sukhomlin’s nature is very good. Supped with Druzhfnin and ^.nnenkov very pleasantly.

Got up at seven, I don’t know why, and wrote nothing till two though I meant to ; only read and played.* At the gymnasium Milov’s triumph, which had cost me five rubles, was not a success. The talk about an ukdz is humbug, but there is an agitation among the people. Dined at home well. Slept. At Stol^pin’s I did not feel inclined to listen to the music, my nerves were blunt. Kiesewetter’s story attracts me.

My words will be remembered — that in two years’ time the peasants will rise, unless they are wisely emancipated before then. Woke up, beautiful weather, and the first person I met was Kiesewetter. After gym- nastics I went to Albrecht and for the violin. Found Druzhinin in a fume ; no one else came to dinner. Strange that I feel uncomfortable when alone with him. EUfigewetter came. He is intelligent, gifted, and sound. He is a simpleton of genius. He played beautifully. A. P. called. Everybody liked her very much. Kolbasin was there, a very fine fellow.

Gymnastics in the morning. Before that I began writing with pleasure. F. Tolstoy came. . . . Dined at Bdtkin’s. Galakhov stinks of tobacco and the ferule. Evening at Pfsemski’s. Filipov is a sickly sweet rogue and middle class. At home, A. P. A wonderful evening ; she is a clever and ardent girl.

Gymnastics. Have received my passport and decided to go. I took money from Panaev. Bremer, Trdson, and Stotypin, dined with me — nice. Kiesewetter came terribly drunk. He played badly. At the Ustinovs’ women’s talk about the Morny diamonds. Awful ! The General shouted during the music. Kiesewetter’s lady is a sleeping corpse. Botkin, Panaev, and the three brothers Zhemchfiznikov. Leo is a fine fiery character. Stotypin, Gorchakdv, and Bremer, came. Gorchakov has become friendly with Kiesewetter. Kiesewetter touched me deeply.

Missed the train and woke Kolbasin. Chernishevski came : clever and ardent. Did gymnastics ; dined at home alone. Slept. Was roused by Kov&in, at whose house I had called. He is ardent and noble-minded, but dull. Then visited Kolbdsin and Davydov, from whom I borrowed 800 rubles. She did not come and this makes me sad.