8–14 August 1853

Did nothing. Did not have an explanation with Teodorfna. Thfc pining all Kafl memories of my .life recyrred to my mind ; Helke, Baryitinski, Levin, my debts and all the nastiness. Sloth and apathy — these are my misfortunes. To-morrow I go to Kislovodsk and there I will write.

Rode to Kislovodsk, bathed at Narzin,* dined, slept, and walked about till evening. Next day (the 10th) bathed twice and played prifirence till evening. Winning eight rubles afforded me too much satisfaction. That is bad.

On the score of illness have done nothing all day. My throat is really worse and I have been feverish all day, so that my head refuses to work.

Ill all day, read Madeleine , and was bled.