13–19 February 1854

Finished my will and started at ten. Chatted pleasantly on the road with Vergani, and at home found all my brothers and the Perfilevs. Mitenka (Dmitri) grieved me, Serezha gladdened me. Received a letter from Nekrasov. He is dissatisfied with The Reminiscences of a Billiard-Marker. Did nothing these two days, but passed them very pleasantly in spite of a sore throat.

The second day did not pass so agreeably, but still well. Have taken another 246 rubles from the office. Have received 235 rubles from Serezha. Have paid rubles in advance for a gun, and one to Maxim. There remain 169-45.

Remember nothing except that I reached Moscow. Am physically and morally disorderly and have spent too much money. 135 rubles for a cloak, 35 for uniform accessories, 10 for sundries, 10 for boots — 190, leaving 442-60. Owe Nikolenka 200 and Alexeev 140.