10–16 January 1853
10 January 1853
Rode out to get firewood. The weather is wretched and I have caught a cold. In the evening I wrote fairly well. My head aches. Am very anxious to be active.
Other diaries for 10 January ↗11 January 1853
Did nothing. Chatted with Yanushke- vich and told him of my intention to resign my turn for promotion to him, if there is to be a promotion. Must write. Am depressed.
Other diaries for 11 January ↗12 January 1853
The officers, little by little, are ceasing to scowl. Have been stupid enough to lose six rubles at preference and wanted to play at bank. I haven’t a farthing. I have planned a sketch, The Ball and the B. . . . My throat is aching, but I am in good spirits.
Other diaries for 12 January ↗13 January 1853 – 16 January 1853
My throat has been aching, but on the 14th I got drunk with Arin^vski. Am neither gay nor dull. Played to-day for trifling sums, but the bump of play is developing. This is a stupid life. Yanushkevich told me my fortune, and what came out clearly was a change of life ; and that in fact is an excellent expression of what I want. In reality my happinessdepends on living rightly.